Colleen said to Russell “Should we RSVP now saying we aren’t coming to Swi’s birthday party and try to make the Christmas one? I don’t know about that one either though. I don’t want to go and not have fun because I am thinking about Katie. ” Russell said “No question about it. “

Russell said “I don’t want to be sitting at the table and be all shaky. ” Colleen said crying “Our lives are about to change drastically. Katie is going to be on hospice for the rest of her life. I really feel we have to at least try a little Dialysis too. ” She said crying “Yes. I feel like we have to do that to make me feel better. “

Colleen said crying “Oh boy. I so wish Katie was like Jenny. That was so easy. She had a pre-op and then she had the surgery. She only had to deal with the pain for a little bit rather than a long time. ” Russell said “Right baby. I don’t know if having cancer is a big game to her or what. ”